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Wow!!!!!! It’s been awhile since I’ve posted. And without the support I am now at my heaviest. I woke up this moring with a fresh new out look on life. I really need to lose this weight so i could feel bettter about myself. I almost destroyed my relationship of 10 years because I didn’t like what I seen in the mioor. How could i love someone when i wasn’t loving myself. I could sit here and make up every excuse in the book, but thaat won’t help. I have to look at things at face value and make a change if i don’t agree. So today I have decided to make that change and have a fresh new start. i will do my best to stay on a reasonable plan that works for me. ALL ABOARD!!!!!!!!

I seem to be tired a lot lately. I’ve been having trouble getting out of bed to get to work on time. I’m sluggish and it seems dlike there is no point in doing this anyways. But I know it’s all in my head. I haven’t weighed myself in about 2-3 weeks. The last time I did I was at my highest weight ever. So it either i do this or I don’t. I am so tired of being tired. So the only solution is to get in gear! Once the weight comes off I know I won’t feel tired all the time. My boyfriend gets upset with me because I don’t be in the mood to do the do…and that’s only because I feel so BIG! So I decided once again to give it another another try. This morning I had 2 oz of slice turkey breast with a half of apple. My morning snack was 3 oz of tuna with a half of grape fruit. So far so good, but I do have a slight headache. Once my body get through the detox phase I know I will start to feel better.

My first week did not go as I planned. It’s not that I’m eating a whole lot, but it’s what I’m eating. My appetite only wants junk and I have given in every time. All I can do is re evaluate myself and jump back on the wagon. New week, new attitude. Hope to have some good news next weigh in.

Well, my first day didn’t go as planned. I did so good up until I got home from work. My sweet tooth kick in and I gave in. I had me a bowl of fruit loops. Just need to stay focus to why I’m here… I will get

I’m having a rough time right bout now…it’s my first day starting in over 3 months and I feel like giving in to my tempations. My body is so use to eating icky food that my mind is telling me YES but my bodies telling me NO. As I was feeling weak I thought to myself the best thing to help me is to go blog. So I here typing away to help take my mind off the ick food. I forgot how hard the first few days are. I just need to get through the detox stage and then I will be alright.

Hello to all my buddies,

 I’ve missed you all… MIA for a while now. Drowing in my own self pitty…After reaching an all time high with my weight I woke up this morning saying enough is enough. I’m not sure what I was trying to do, but I know whatever it was it has to end today. So I packed my meals for the day and keep telling myself to take one day at a time.

I see a lot has changed since I’ve been gone.

Food Log

Exercise Log

I haven’t blogged in several days. I’ve been so fustrated with things going on in my life. And my luck is running thin…it’s bad enough I was out of commission due to a work injury to my knee. Now, I finally feeling strong enough to start walking again another accident happens. WHY?? Monday I was on my way in to work and there was stop and go traffic like always. Suddenly the traffic started to flow and then had to brake. Here I am at a stand still with my foot on the brake. I noticed a big SUV behind me going pretty fast. I’m saying to my self I hope he slows down, but instead he cuts over into the next lane. When that happened the car behind him was traveling at a fast pace and didn’t have enough time to stop and BAM rearended me. I injured my back, neck, arms, head.  I keep telling myself things could have been worst. So I’m very thankful…I thought I was going to be very sore for a while the first three days was aweful, but now I still feel the pain but not as intense. I have more burnning sensation more than anything. But I’m a very strong individual and I will come back even stronger. So don’t count me out just yet!

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I have not been able to get myself motivated since my knee injury. There are days where i do good and then days I completely go bunkers. I know I’ve been emotionally and physically drained. I feeling somewhat burnt out. By the time I get home in the evenings I don’t even eat. I just cook for the family go in my room lie down and fall to sleep.  

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I’m starting to feel bloated again which is an aweful feeling. Last night lying in bed when i tried to roll up I felt like a stuff pumpkin…I know i really need to start working out and eating right. My knee is better and I think I will try and do a slow pace walk on the treadmill tonight. I plan to go and buy all the ingredients for my program and begin once again. I’ve been half steppin. One foot in and one foot out. I only have 3 months left before my birthday and i soooooooo want to look half way decent. So it’s time to get real with myself and with my program.

Okay, I found my MOJO…I am back on track. I just have to keep telling myself I can still lose if I follow the plan. It may not be as much because Im not getting in cardio, but i can do my strength excerise.